How do you distinguish between right and wrong? Actually, you know the answer in your heart; you know it deep down. That's the most mysterious part. You have ten thousand reasons to convince yourself not to do it because it's difficult, but in the end, you go around it, and the energy spent is far greater than the energy spent on facing it directly. And what about your youth? Isn't it just wasted away? So, here's a suggestion for you: when you just enter the workforce, as long as it conforms to moral standards and is legal, whatever job pays more, do that job. This world is very honest; every penny you earn matches your ability.