Your honest advice..

"I'm ash@med of myself, am so ash@med of myself. I went to a building site to work so I can manage to package my life.
On getting there, I realised my friend owns the building. This is a big disgrace. I don't even know what to do. Please, what should I do? Should I continue with the work or look for somewhere else?
Because this is a disgrace to me, that my friend has built a house - someone who had nothing when we started. Even at that time, I was the one assisting him.
Now he has a house, and I want to work for him as a labourer. Please, advise me..."