When your size is not size you fall for the trap of expecting the market to generate the profit you desire instead of the profit that's realistic.
The vast majority of holders you see active on CX have all been in profit at some stage of the cycle. Yet today, most are buried in heavy losses, because they've been unrealistic from the start. They always want more. But the real reason they don't sell in profit isn't just greed, but cult psychology. They don't want to be the one exiting while the community chants 'just getting started' so they stay, part of the hive, in perpetual denial. Eventually, reality smacks them. They either leave quietly or go silent in the same groups they once worshipped.
But then it begins again: a new shiny object, a new private/public group membership, a new cult, a new hype, a new trap. They rinse and repeat this cycle multiple times until the game breaks them. From there, they drift around CX, depressed, bitter, searching for someone to hate on. Not because that person wrecked them, but because facing the truth about their own decisions is too painful.
Don't blame the market if your account balance is small. It is what it is. Every small account can grow, but not if you're delusional about what it should produce. I get it, it's frustrating to watch others print thousands or even millions a week off the same percentage moves where you only make a few dollars. You start telling yourself you deserve more size, that the others are just lucky, but that's not reality. If you don't have significant size yet, it's because you haven't done enough to earn it. The others may have been in the game longer, taken more hits, refined better strategies, and built what you haven't yet. You can't expect to be in your early 20s with the same or more achievements as someone genuinely successful and 10-20 years older than you. They've been at it for a lot longer.
Stop comparing yourself to strangers. Think about you. Do the work, grow the size over the years, and the market will pay you handsomely.